The Gorge

At zero points, I binged tonight:
- Cookie (3)
- McDonalds Ice Cream Cone (3)
- Red Wine - 1/2 Cup (1.5)
- Beer - 24 oz (6)
- Carrot Sticks and Hummus (4)

It was all good. Still gots 10.5 Weekly Points left.

Quick Update

So an update for me, since I'm the only one that reads this thing and will probably delete this blog eventually.

Since starting back a few weeks ago (Feb 9, 2009), I have lost 20.8 pounds. I believe. I could be wrong and I don't have my paperwork in front of me. It's definately 20 pounds with a decimal afterwards.

Right now, I'm at zero points. Prior to my last item of intake, I had 3.5 points left and that's how much one measured cup of red wine is worth on the WW. So I'm fucking content and sleepy, which is good because being awake means that I will eventually eat.

Bean Sprouts for Midnight Snack

I'm stressing out right now. I am in the midst of hiring a lawyer... total white people status. Without getting too much into detail, I was wronged and I'm trying to get fairly compensated. Those little fucking cockroach insurance companies... I hope they all go bankrupt after I'm through with them.

Anyways, my stress level correlates with my eating behavior, typically. I have this stressor plus my car is fucking up. While I'm way above income-level for a single man (I should be making more money), I don't have much to show for it except for 3 iPods and a laptop. I don't have a car payment, thank God. My car is fucking up right now. Something about a hose leaking fluid from my radiator. My dad came down with my uncle and they tried to fix it. I'll see tomorrow the end result of their efforts.

I rocked the gym on Monday... I did a high intensity workout on the elliptical because it's easier on my back. Well, it's supposed to be easier, but my back was fucking killing the shit out of me. I hope that this pain gets better because I can't do painkillers for the rest of my life and I don't smoke pot.

With my dad helping me out, I went over. He took me and my uncle to Denny's and I adhered to my Weight Watchers as diligently as I could. I believe my meal was like 18 points. Add to that a Snickers bar (7!? points) and a soy latte (I thought was supposed to have 3 points, but it turned out to be 5... WTF!?). It's all good. I got off track a little and I went over by 3.5 points (so far) for my day (still Thursday).

So I'm eating bean sprouts. A whole cup for 0 points. I'm feeling less-hungry, too.

I need to focus on eating all my veggies. Fuck me in the ass.

Rocking the WW

My favorite treat is ice cream. McDonalds vanilla cone or low-fat ice cream. Was feeling hungry so I just nommed on a skinny-cow ice cream sandwich. It was delicious. Have been kicking ass on the Weight Watchers. I'm on week 4 with three months before the June... I have lost 15.8 pounds and I am going full-speed ahead. The weight loss is slow but speeding :P

My clothes feel looser... significantly. I am about 16.3 pounds away from my first goal of getting my ass under 300 lbs. I'll get there. I want to get there sooner than later, but it took me a while to puff up when I gained all my weight back. I am being more active, especially with utilizing my gym membership. Gym changed venues because 24-Hour Shitness decided not to continue their franchise in Salinas and a newer, better, gym took over my contract. Very very nice. Can't wait till they get their jacuzzi installed.

The one mantra that I'm living by is that I gotta burn more calories than I ingest. I'm really trying my ass off. That whole thing they talk about at the WW meetings, as far as mentally rehearsing, is what is working for me. Today, someone bought Round Table Pizza for lunch and I ate only one slice (at 8 points) with a salad to fill me up. I ate out at this work-related dinner and made sure to fill up half my plate with the steamed greens and salad, while also being mindful of my portions. I was able to tally things up right and I'm not regretful for my eating behaviors.

Just a quick note: I've given up posting my deepest thoughts on the internet... blocked or not, I am afraid that they will come back and bite me in the ass. The closest thing I got going is micro-blogging, which I am good at instantaneously lamenting my disdain.

I am in love with my girlfriend. She is a huge motivator for me. I want to look good for her, make her look good, and be healthy so that I can enjoy my time with her. She is a sweetheart and I know she loves me. I can't wait to move in with her, though I have my fears. We still have a lot of things to work out before I am fully set on making her my betrothed. While my girlfriend is not a Christian, thus not sharing my faith, she is also not a whore or hypocrite. I'll take that straight to the bank.

My mood is good. Getting organized and losing the weight is definitely going to affect my happiness... positively affecting it. That's really, all I want.